Ever since i went over Malacca for Christmas celebration last week, i’ve been keeping in touch with Mr.C quite often. Hmm. Yeap, we have too many things to be made clear about. Things didn’t start off straight. But we’ve close the gap we had before this until the point where he is okay with it, and i’m ready to clear stuffs with him.
We went out for movies (Yes Man!) and i did some CNY shopping last weekend. Yea, he accompanied me shop for my CNY clothes, wahaha! I think this is the first time that i shopped with a guy ‘cos i am kinda paiseh as i worry guys will get bored with the ladies choosing their things for quite some time. =D The end, i got myself 3 tops (a shirt, a tube top and a spaghetti top), all from Nichii, which makes my full outfit for CNY ‘09 a Nichii outfit. Wahaha. The outing was just a short while because he has something on at night. Keke.
Yes Man! was hilarious enough to make me laugh almost throughout the whole 1 hour and 45 minutes movie. I think the funniest quote in the movie was: “Hey! The ran-out-of-fuel-wanna-make-out guy”. ROFL! Luckily the cinema wasn’t too cold for me as i was only wearing hot pants ‘cos i did not bring back any pants with me. Didn’t expect to go out anywhere during the weekends though. Haha.
The day after the movie was the starting point of everything that happened. We were just chatting about some crazy stuff about girls. The flow was so smooth till i can blend in with all the doubts i have into the conversation just like that. I wasn’t surprised that he knows the details of what i asked. Yea, he knows a lot about me (I’m still not scared =P). The whole thing went on and on endlessly till about 5am i think. Even after chatting, i called you for about half an hour before going to bed. Yeap, my first time calling you over the phone wahaha.
I’m so sorry for keeping you up so late, i even asked you not to offline till i’m done. Wahaha. But yeap, i’m glad that i actually made it. You know as well that i took bloody long time to even start to tell you about stuffs. I’m sorry for taking almost everything to the negative side, but i think you know the reason why. I didn’t want to make myself hope for what’s impossible.
On the very next day, you were leaving already. Another thing i’m glad is that you texted me when you reached. Haha. I know i’m silly, shhhh! Well, i actually didn’t know that we’ll have the “discussion” again after the last night. But, yea we did. You even made me superbly mad/sad/emo for some time when you said something i never expect you to say. Yea, i was really angry, and it’s the first time that i told you i’m angry. Even my tears almost rolled down. Really, i was really thinking that you will do it if you think that will help me. Sorry, but yeah, i was thinking that way.
Haha, i think you couldn’t believe that i would think you would do that huh? Yerp, you bombarded me after that too, which made me numb for a moment. I didn’t know you will say such stuff to me actually. Fine, i always think that you weren’t much bothered about me unless it’s necessary. Opps, sorry. =P I think you said that after i kinda triggered you with some words huh? Keke.
Unbelievably, i kept you up even later this time. 7am. I was just chatting through without even realising the time. Even my dad was already awake, and he almost found out that i wasn’t sleeping yet. Wahaha. I thought that i wouldn’t be seeing you online anymore as you will only online 2 weeks later. Your name popped up on my IM and yeah, it surprises me. Wahaha.
Amazingly, i told you the deepest darkest secret of mine which i never thought i would tell anyone. Nope, it’s not that i want to keep it from you. You know i don’t mind telling you but i just didn’t want to look back at those painful memories of mine. We bid farewell over the Internet soon after that, and i won’t be meeting you online for a fortnight. Nah, i think it’s better for you not to online also. YOU NEED TO STUDIEEEE!!! So, don’t let me catch you online aight? Wahaha. I’m evil now.
I guess after that day i started to have enough guts to face you with all my doubts, things have been better, don’t you think? Yeap, we still have some restrictions of what we can do, but i’m still loving it =) At least it didn’t make me think that it’s the end of it, which obviously i don’t hope for it to happen. I’m so thankful i did it, seriously. Omg, i’m only able to do it after TWO freaking years! Oh my, i’m such a failure. Wahaha.
Well, the last conversation marked the end of our communication over the Internet for 2008. I’ll see you again in 2009, if it’s possible. =) [I know it sounded emo, but i'm not =P]
** Hey you! One thing here kay: please please please please do not disappear. Don’t you ever do that okie. And, thankie a lot for being there for me, there to listen me up. Thankie for being patient with my tone while chatting. Just wanna thankie you for everything you did. =) THANKIE!!
Okie, i gotta get ready for class at 12noon. Having a test later at night at 8pm =.= Why wakie so early? Thanks to the course registration this morning. Every semester, the worst thing is about the course registration. It’s really a pain in the ass i tell you. Wahaha. Well, gotta run now. Ta!~
P/S: Still collecting all the X-Mas photos. Be patient and stay tuned =)
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